Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I have had the crappest day. I actually thought about popping enough pills to quietly go to sleep, forever. Because I am sick of feeling weak and tired. I am sick of not being able to eat or sleep. But then where would that leave my son.
Have I fallen in a whole, am I feeling really depressed because I can't eat. Or is it my depression kicking back in? Who knows.
I have made it through today. I suppose that is the only plus.
Have I fallen in a whole, am I feeling really depressed because I can't eat. Or is it my depression kicking back in? Who knows.
I have made it through today. I suppose that is the only plus.
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A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
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Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
i've been there- its not easy, but please beleive me when i say i've been there. And nothing good is ever easy. I know at the moment you can't prob. can't see your life changing and it won't overnight-
i did it in baby steps - and from time to time i still slip back to my old ways - and honestly, i have thoguht thoose thoughts about it finishing a thousand and one times.
And have to tell myself that i can't react so knee jerkingly to one feeling/emotion - because that is how i feel in that moment, or in that day-
that feeling, as painfull as it is does not define me or my life, as painfull as it is to feel.
Think about the good times you've had and your future.
lucile ball once said - keeping buisy and making optimisim a way of life can do incredible things -
and i honestly live by that
FORCE yourself to act normal (thats how i began) by just leaving the house (get ready -don't give yourself the option, no matter how you feel0)
get involved -
go to the library, volunteer, join a dance class (excercise -as many times as youve prob heard it realeases endorphins and WILl make you feel better)
but im there at the moment and
i thank god each day for what i have - my family etc.
you have to start small
one day turns in to two, turns into four , turns in to a week, a month, a year- a happy lifetime for yourself, your family and your son.