I'm back from my mom's house. I spent 3 days there because I had to take care of the horses, dogs, and cats... Therefore, I had to eat. What did I eat? I ate McDonald's and Burger King because my mom has no food in the house because she's never there because she works. I GAINED 6 POUNDS IN 3 DAYS! OH MY GOD I WANNA PURGE SOOO BAD RIGHT NOW! I can't! I have WAY too much to lose if I do that, but I've only had 860 calories today. I used to weigh 134 and now I'm back up to 140! I feel so disgusting right now! I feel huge! Oh my God! I lost 9 pounds in 10 days before and I'm afraid I'm slipping again, but I don't really know how to stop. I just feel so helpless right now! So much shit went on at my mom's house and the crazy part is that she was all the way in Canada causing the shit!
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