Today is horrible... I knew it was going to be because I binged late last night. I felt sick to my stomach this morning when I woke up, and I could just feel all the ice cream, cookies, etc. floating around in there. I knew that today would be the same as yesterday, because I wasn't starting off fresh. My mom just doesn't understand why today isn't a new day for me. I woke up and had a bowl of cereal with soy milk, which triggered eating many more bowls of cereal. I used to be able to eat one bowl and go to work and feel fine. But then again, I also used to go to the gym and work out really hard. As much as I want to go to the gym because I know it is the one thing that actually does make me feel better about myself, I simply don't have the will power anymore. It left my body and now it is just easier to eat everything and if I can, bring it back up. Ughh what I morning so far!
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