well..before I really worked on really recovering and wanting it...I had to be scared..i mean people cold tel me all day long..this is not healthy it's gonna kill you ect. but not until I really had issues and I realized that if I keep going on like this its gonna get worse, did I really try to recover...I basically needed a scare...you don't want it to get that far though...try to recover and work hard to recover just knowing that there are others that did wait too long and it was too late or almost too late...don't be one of the oned that had to find out the hard way..

the sad thing is that for me..when i was really really sick, i didn't want to get better..didn't want to gain the weight, etc. but it was pure hell living through the torment of freaking out when i ate, seeing the scale go up and down..

even when i was having heart palpitations and physically felt like i was dying, i was so afraid to give it all up.

but the thing is, what do you really want for yourself..and your life.

if that means giving treatment a chance, and saving your own life by doing so...it's something you will have to do.

i wasn't close to 100% wanting to recover, but i knew if i didn't try, it would kill me..and i didn't want to die that way.

all i can suggest is to think hard about what life will be like this way..and how long your body can even put up with it..

and prepare yourself for a hard fight, but a fight that is worth your life.

Hun

I don'tthink any of us feel "ready" at first...only for fleeting moments at a time, but it's so natural to feel that working through things is just too much to handle...I would say most of us still have days when we would like to throw the towel in and give the treatment up, because it's not an easy journey...

...just remember though, that it is worth it, you are worth all the effort, don't give up on yourself!

I know it's really hard and scary to ask for help, but you know deep down that it's what you need to do.

*hugs*

Sharon xx

I think sometimes you just gotta make that leap. You gotta up and decide that fear isn't going to hold you back. Most people aren't ready. And most people have doubts about whether or not they are worth treatment.

It isn't about changing that attitude enough to get you into recovery. It is just about getting you into recovery. The working on stuff comes later.

Of course it is scary! Change is ALWAYS scary. That's just life, No? Baby steps. One day at a time. One thought at a time. PATIENCE with yourself and others.