So here goes, I am new to this.... about 8 weeks ago my old foster placement broke down and I was moved to some new carers they are really nice ect. ect. but I feel I have absolulty no control over my life anymore, just when i feel all is finally well it comes crashing down around me and i cant control it. So since I have been in my new placement I have been restricting my food intake, no breakfast, no lunch and barely any tea. I have lost weight (8st 8lbs to 7st 4lbs) and my foster carers are worried about me. But....it is not about the weight loss, i really couldnt care if doing this made me 20st, i don't restrict to low calorie food i am happy eating deep fried chips when i do eat... it is all about the control, for once in my life I want control over MY life! When my foster carers push and push me to eat at meal times I give in but then i feel bad and go upstairs to make myself sick...only i cant do it, i retch and retch but nothing comes up. I feel like i cant even do that properly. so you see i dont want to be thin, i don't binge and I can't even purge properly...what is this?
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