I was in your boat when I was younger. I kept denying that I could get over this on my own. The only thing that you can do is get medical help. This sounds scary, but all you have to do is go to your family doctor, tell them everything you said here, and then ask for a recommendation to a GOOD therapist. See the therapist, and if you don't like them after two sessions, look for someone else. This is hard, I know, but maybe you can enlist some help from a very close friend or family member that respects you. After you have a good therapist set in place, and you've seen him/her multiple times, look for a good dietitian that has specialised in EDs, or is recovered from one in the past.

Take care of yourself, and get the help you need and deserve. /hugs

Anorexia is a bully, it will only be in your life if you let it, don't ever think you can be its friend, its hard to find the right medical help but GP is a good starting point. all the best

I understand the rollercoaster you are on, but you can't let it get you down. You have to make a choice to recover. That means telling your doctor or a close friend, like lapetitem said. Anyway, good luck and you're defenitely in the right place for support if you need it. I am very new and am finding this community very helpful. :)