I don't know what to do anymore. I was just reading though everyone else's posts and realized I can't comment/give advice because I have nothing to say, no motivational words. I'm so tired of all this. I know I shouldn't be on this site if I don't want to get better, but no one else will listen to me. Does anyone else ever get stuck like this? My therapist gave me the option of gaining weight at home or in treatment. Actually, the thought of going back to treatment again doesn't sound so bad if I wouldn't have to repeat my junior year of high school. I'm just so tired of being the "good kid", the "quiet, responsible one", the "good student"... I just feel like I need ED right now. I want to cry, I want my mom to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, that I'll make it through. I want my 14 year old sister to stop hating me for having an ED, I don't want my 10 year old sister to be so scared for me. I want this to end, but I don't know how. It's easier said than done..."Just eat, you can do it!" That's bull. It feels like there's no way out. Or, actually, two ways: death and recovery. Neither desirable. So here I am, in the middle of it all.
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