Well, I'm in recovery for anorexia and have made some real progress. For the first time in a while I'm healthy and a normal weight. The problem is I just can't seem to let go of those old feelings that to be happy is to be perfect which means I must be thin. To be honest, I miss my eating disorder and I'm at a place where I can barely look at my self in the mirror without feeling anxious and upset with what I have become. I'm still thin, everyone seems to tell me that but for me thats not good enough. I just don't know what to do, I want to stop judgeing myself and be content but I just can't get there. I thought about throwing out my scales and avoiding mirrors but I don't know if I can do that. Please if anyone has been in a similar place your advice would help. Yesterday I weighed myself and now I'm too scared to eat. I feel so torn between what I want and what would be good for me I feel lost.
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