Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I feel really bad writing this but if I dont I feel like something is going to happen. I think I must be really sick or insane or something because I have an addiction to being in hospital. When I first started taking overdoses I genuinely wanted to kill myself, but now I just want to hurt myself and put myself in hospital. It's not for attention, its because I get to be away from everything because I'm so exhausted by fighting this every day. I also feel like I deserve punishment. I have spent all of the last two days planning my next overdose and part of me wants it to kill me but the other part just wants to be away from everything for a few days. I cant explain any better than that. Sorry if everyone thinks I'm weird/bad. I cant tell anyone because if I do they will just think that all I want is attention and they will ignore me. I couldnt stand that. Sorry everyone.
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don't feel bad, it's good that your able to say it, accepting it is always the first step, i can't offer much advice, but can offer you a huuuuuge hug, you're not sick or insane, people deal with things in different ways, have you mentioned it to a doctor or counsellor, they might be able to help, but then i could be naive as i haven't had any proper sort of therapy, anyway am sure someone will come along that can offer better words of comfort, all i can say is stay strong, we're all here for you x
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You're not insane. And you're not addicted to being in hospitals. It's like you said you are exhausted and you need help, but not in a regular hospital. You need a ED treatment facility where they can work on you problems and not just give you a quick fix. Our health system is just too screwed up to recognize that.
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Hey...please don't hurt yourself anymore...you might actually kill yourself or end up harmed even more. I agree, find ED help and it may open the doors needed to help you start healing..**hugs**
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
