I went to the drs in feb and asked for help which took a lot of courage but I did it and thought I might start getting support. I got referral and have an apt with psychiatrist at end of April. Since first seeing the dr when my BMI was still just normal its dropped a lot and I'm scared what will happen if it contines to drop more it's still a month before my apt and I'm already into well into underweight. I've been trying to eat and I know I've not been completely comitted to recovery all the time but even so have slowed weight loss down. But still am losing. My dr hasn't asked to see me again but thinking of making an apt next week. Now i'm ill too and don't want to eat and feeling yucky, vunerable and scared. I don't even know what will happen at the apt. I think I need to get nutritional help cos I just don't know what to eat. Even when I've seen them I will prob have to wait again meanwhile ED is out of control. I don't want to end up in hospital (rpob not even specialised cos of my age and location). I can't i have to start my new job in a week. i have to start and can't have time off because will lose it, then no money, no house everything will just fall apart and they'll be nothing to live for. I know a lot of the time I do want to lose more but i really am trying to fight and want to want to get better ~(I must want it at some level cos went to drs) and right now I need support at DS cos I'm not getting any anywhere else. Please help.
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