I dont know why i am the way i am. I feel like, well, just alone. A few of my friends know that i am bulimic but to no extent. The happiest part of my day is when i wake up and have to go to the bathroom because of the 12 laxatives i take the night befor.. its the only time i feel like im worth looking at.. i have always LOVED the summer.. but always dread wearing bathing suites. i feel like if im walking in my bikini or even just sun tanning everyone is staring and laughing at me in disgust.. whenever i eat i refuse to go out. i can honestly see myself growing in the mirror every day. i cant even be happy in a relationship because im so unhappy with myself =[
I hate this..
I hate this..
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