
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I watched a talk show dealing with eating disorders, specifically Bulimia. For some reason, in my messed up head this seemed like a great idea...that was the first night I ever forced myself to vomit.
Also around that time I was having a lot of trouble at school...my best friend ditched me to become "popular". My baseball coach told me I ran like an elephant. Just lots of things during that year really affected me. If only I could have forseen the future.
Kids at school would tease me about my looks - my parents would force feed me foods all the time (and the longer it took me to eat, the more food they piled in front of me) - my parents use to tell me to just 'accept' being a big girl - and that if I would actually work at it, I would fit in (size wise) with the other women in the family. That was all in childhood though...
As an adult, I think the negative self image that I brought forward as a person, was that which was scarred, and then to top it off, my stbx often made comments about supermodels, actresses, porn stars - who ever, and then compared them to my body - telling me I'd never look good naked!
Yeah - I have some mental problems, and it seems like I stick with them throughout life.