I think you know what you should do. Purging in itself, no matter how much isn't right. Do you know why you started the purging again? I think you should get a nutritionist to help you make a meal plan that will avoid the feeling of a binge and also you should talk with a therapist about the feelings you are having that maybe you don't even know about.... Write in a journal daily and take time for yourself too. Take care If you want someone to talk to message me anytime.

the thing is that you get to a stage with the illness that it is easier to remain sick than try to get better. my eating disorder helped me get through my life, now I want to get better and my life is falling apart. the first step is to stop purging. I have been purge free for 9 weeks. I have never felt as ill mentally but my body is feeling better.

You should start therapy again. Nip this in the bud! You know you have a past, and you don't want to do this again.

Get a good therapist that you feel comfortable with. If you see them two times, and still don't feel comfortable, try someone else. Try to get a good recommendation for a psychiatrist who can help you with medication. In my case, it really did help, even though I was scared to try it. Also, get a dietitian on your side for this battle. She can give you the meal plan for after you've gotten the emotions and coping devices under control through therapy.

And lastly, don't give up. Slips happen, but it's important not to give up and allow yourself to just slide down the mountain.

I just have to agree with LaPetite. I kind of cling on every word she says. XO

You know you have to go back to therapy, because it won't stay at two or three times a week. It will become a coping mechanism again, first for the really big problems but then for smaller things too and it will escalate to where you would have to go back to the hospital. Don't let it go that far.

I'm new to this site and spotted your story. Bulimia started when I was 18, am now 23 and have got better for a couple of years then worse. I am at a stage now where every day brings doubts about will it ever end but you have to keep trying. You deserve to have a happy life. I was wondering if you had anything to distract yourself from the binging triggers ie hobby? I know I binge when I am on my own. It is too easy. If you find yourself in a triggering environment what else could you do to avoid it short-term. Message me if it releases some anxiety. I always need to be distracted from it! Try to stay calm and I would definitly get help again, do it for you.

I am still very hesitant to seek help. The last 2 yrs or so I've found a haven in health and fitness. I am unable to eat sugary, starchy or any food in more than a small or moderate amount due to really bad IBS and a long history of disease that causes +++ fatigue, malaise, aches, pains etc... i have found how to nearly eliminate most of these problems through diet. I just don't know how else to deal with stress and I make it ok to do it in my mind because it's such a "good" relief. Even exercise doesnt quite do the same thing. Last time I was with a dietitian I had to eat all kinds of foods...ok I got used to it but I can see a huge difference now. it's not an excuse. i feel awesome and amazing eating this way but some days it's hard to deal with cravings. it's so conflicting...i'd give almost anything to feel great physically and mentally like i do when i eat this way but it also doesnt allow a lot of room for extras...i have cheats and treats at least once a week but i find more than anything i seek the comfort and stress relief...