I'm trying so hard not to let this go any further but I'm not sure I can do it. I look at my arms and I feel I am too skinny, but when I look at my actual body I feel disgusting. I feel like I am putting weight on and I look stupid. I want to cut certain parts off me off to solve the problem. I am eating but only because of my ME. I worry about what I am eating each time and I feel guilty if I eat anything that's not nutritious. I am too scared to weigh myself and all too aware that starting to 'calorie count' would be a never ending obsession. Another obsession.
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