I have a birthday coming up at the end of this month and a friend, who really hasn't been there for me during this time, emailed me and asked what am I doing for my birthday. I don't like birthdays, I don't care about the getting older, I just wish I was never born. I feel like my life has been a mistake. How am I supposed to celebrate something every year when I can't celebrate my life? Besides, she is 4 hours away and she won't come to where we live, she wants me to go home. Maybe I don't want to go home. I am barely functioning and existing, and she wants me to worry about my birthday. It is so funny to me how clueless some people really are. Yeah put on a fake smile and pretend how happy I am with life, that sounds like a great idea. What a joke! All it has been is another year where I am not successful about figuring out my life, a career, just life in general. My question is, does anyone else feel like this about their birthdays?
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