In my heart there was a place so cold and lost and sad,
the future looked so bleak and bare, and and oh so very bad.
For years I fought this demon man, in ways one cant describe
One word, one look, one angry stance could kill my happy vibe.
I tried to do the things he asked, I tried to make him smile,
I tried to make a happy home; yet still he stayed so vile.
And then I tried a different tack; I stood my ground and fought,
But this too turned out pointless for the heartache that it brought.
There seemed to be no logic, no reason for his rage,
His words defied his actions through each and every stage.
My heart soon gave up trying, my head felt so confused,
One day he could be nice to me, the next he would abuse.
I lived each day in fear and dread, well 'lived' is not quite true,
I functioned like an empty soul, his hate was all I knew.
It didn't matter what I said, or did, or felt or thought.
For everything I did was wrong and left him so distraught.

But then one day the sun came out and shone its light on me,
It made me smile, it made me warm and made me feel so free.
One day I woke up feeling good, one day I said 'well tough',
One day I said 'please go away because I've had enough'.
So now I face the aftermath; the scorn of letting go.
Each day is unpredictable with stuff I just don't know.
The choices that he made for me are now no longer real,
And I have days that tear me up and make me want to squeal.
I'm slowly gaining balance, and learning on my own.
I know that I am blossoming, I know that I have grown.
No more do I feel lonely, or trapped inside his hell.
No more am I afraid of him or scared that he might yell.
He can shout and he can rage, or he can be a prick.
My heart has finally let him go and is no longer sick.

So this, my friends, is just my way of saying thanks to you
for standing by me through it all, you helped me see the truth.
You guidance and your friendship, have helped me see things right.
Guess what? Look at that tunnel,...there's no train...yes it's a light!!!!