I GREW UP WITH A VERY ABUSIVE FATHER WHO IS STILL EMOTIONALLY ABUSING ME ,AS HE ALSO ATTACKED MY MUM I AT THE AGE OF 5 TRIED TO INTERVENE ,,IN MY TEENS AT 16 MY BOYFRIEND HIT ME,AND PULLED A FLIK KNIFE,I WASNT EVEN ANGRY ,,WHO COULD PROTECT ME ,,MY FATHER ,,HE ALSO HIT ME ...MY MOTHER ,,,SHE DIDNT STOP MY DAD HITTING ME (I PROTECTED HER) ,,,MY BROTHER WHO WAS 26 ,,,HED NEVER PROTECTED ANYONE ,,,SO I ENDED UP WITH THIS THING FOR 22 YEARS AND HE NEVER STUCK UP FOR ME ,IN FACT IT WAS HIM AND MY FATHER I NEEDED PROTECTING FROM BUT NOW IVE KICKED MY PARTNER FIRMLY IN THE GUTTER BUT I FEEL I WILL NEVER MEET A DECENT GUY ..MY LIFE IS REALLY OVER AS IM AGORAPHOBIC AND I STILL WANT TO MEET A DECENT GUY BUT I DOUBT THAT WILL HAPPEN ,I AM SICK AND TIRED OF DEFENDING EVERYONE ,,AND MYSELF BUT MOBODY GOING TO BAT FOR ME?? I MUST REALLY BE WORTHLESS ,,I FEEL IM AT THE BOTTEM OF A HOLE BUT I DONT KNOW IF I WANNA GET OUT AS ITS SAFE ,,,
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