I hope it doesnt sound like whining but I guess it kinda is whining. I am so pathetic really. I was missing him yesterday and today so did I let it ride? oh hell no. I called him like 4 times. What is WRONG with me? He yells at me and tells me everything that is wrong with me AGAIN. So I asked for it by calling I guess. My boys live with him they are 24 and 19 and they didnt want to move to Iowa with me because of their friends, band and jobs. They actually DID want to come with me but they wanted those things more which I completely understand. They are so sweet to me so at least I have that to lift me up some. I guess I am wondering if feeling lost and so sad and scared is normal after 10 mos? How long does it take and WHAT does it take to get over him? I know it doesnt sound this way but I am actually a very positive person by nature. This is taking me out though. He was my whole world for so long and I actually see now that I lost my identity trying to please him, not knowing he was unable to appreciate me due to the fact that he was seeing someone else. There is another issue. I had NO idea he was seeing her, I feel like such a fool. Well enough ruining people's Saturday evening. Sorry but thanks for listening. Tami
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