I got my court date, and approached the handful of people I thought were friends - no one will come with me as moral support. I find this soooo depressing. I had a therapist once that encouraged me to ask for what I wanted. Well I am learning to do that, the problem is that even though you ask - you don't get what you want. Having these kinds of situations starts hardening my heart. I get paranoid, think no one loves me and the fact is that the people who do love me, my children, siblings are just either inappropriate to ask to come to this hearing or too damn far away. I've always been independent, but I've had the illusion of support - now I really am independent and I have to gather myself up and get on with it. Still sucks though.
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