I KNOW the situation of my marriage ending after 20+ years is reality; I UNDERSTAND that he has OW and there is no point of return to us; I ACCEPT the facts about my life changing esp. my lifestyle as a result of the divorce; I FEEL this is the best for me and the kids in my heart. So why do I feel like crap at some point in my day? It seems when I get a phone call from him, a text, or I 'see' his goings-on with OW, I feel so betrayed, then I feel sad, then mad, then back to 'what did I do wrong' crap. I know I was the enabler/codependent with his sex addiction all these years. I always tried to change to please him and better our relationship but nothing ever worked. Why do I still want to make it right and all of us feel good. pitiful, huh? AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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