The saga continues. Last night I was a mess over what happened with him wanting our little one to meet the OW. Today, it just gets worse. He called to see if he could stop by after work to see the kids. Of course, we were busy. He then gets into how what I did last night was not right. He also said that how I handled Christmas was wrong, that I cut him out and that if he did that to me, that I would be furious. (We spent it at my sister's) He also told me that the reason the kids celebrate christmas is because of him (christian) and not me (Jewish). I feel that I have put on christmas for them for all these years. It's not like he said he wanted them and made christmas. He also kept telling me that he cannot be what I want him to be, the loyal, faithful and loving spouse. He said why should he stay in a marriage that he was miserable in. I don't know, I don't remember being that miserable except for him gambling and never being home. He said now he is in a committed relationship with OW and I need to accept that. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. Now I feel guilty and I didn't do anything. I am back to day one again. I feel so rejected and lost.
Sorry so long.
Sorry so long.
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