Hi........I have been married for 27 years. I have 2 children, 16yrs and 18yrs. In many of the discussions here, it seems to be the husband that has left the marriage. In my situation, it is me that wants to leave. My husband and I are no longer physically or emotionally intimate. I haven't slept in his bed for nearly 4 years, and he hasn't asked me to. We live as roommates and co-parents. From the beginning, I was always the one to initiate physical contact. Even then, we averaged 4 to 6 times per year. I never told anyone because I felt ashamed. I always believed that men wanted sex more than women, and I thought that there must be something terribly wrong with me. I believe that he is somewhat passive aggressive. He can always calmly and kindly make me feel like an idiot. I pretended that everything was ok for so long. I am 51yrs old and I can't pretend anymore. We have raised 2 beautiful children, and they are the light of my life, but I have started talking to my friends, to my sisters, and now to you. I am an attractive woman, I have a rewarding job, and I am terrified. I feel like I have been perched on the top of this fence for so long, and if I don't make the jump, I can't survive. I want love, and laughter, and freedom, and it is so scary.
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