Today I have to go retain a lawyer. It is so scary to do something I don't want to go through but have no choice because my H wants a divorce and has served me already. I feel so sad as I face my reality and it is so scary to be alone. I am so sad and scared that I can't even cry! I am overwhelmed with the paper work that the lawyer gave me during my consultation to return today. It asks to fill out all property and assets to be separated... Do I write it all, what if I forget something, can I go back and add it? He only documented a few items on the papers he served me with and put that we would agree on all property through mediation or further needed process would be started. Does anyone have any suggestions on my question? I don't want to go through this! Wish he could see how all this is so wrong. I pray and pray, but now he is even more determined that he wants the divorce. I guess he got a good taste of single life already, so he tells me that he has fun without me and can now enjoy life. He now lives with his mom, and is always around people there, either his niece, her boyfriend, his sister, her boyfriend, or H's mom, or company they have over are around him. It seems like he is never alone.He hasn't had to experience being alone at home like I have. I wish he would have to feel what it feels like to alone, sad, and feeling like you will be alone the rest of your life, missing the person you love who doesn't love you back. I guess he will never miss me, no wonder his life is now GREAT! and he is even more assured that his life is better without me or us as a familly. Sorry if I went off my subject but I am so overwhelmed and notice that my thoughts jump from one thought to another that has nothing to do with my first thought. WOW! I must be going crazy!
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