Well, here is an update. My husband returned from the diving trip with my son. He was taken aback somewhat that I had not communicated with him while he was away. He came to see my daughter and dropped off presents. He was open and friendly and wanted to share pictures of the trip. It was a Sunday morning and this was always a special time for us. The house was sunny and I was having a latte. . I went off to go on a hike. It was wierd because we were interacting as if all was well. It was a good thing I got out of there when I did. My daughter said he was very quiet on their ride to go shopping. Who knows what that was about. I am having no communication other than about kids needs and that is only short texts. I must say that I really am lonely for him and he is constantly on my mind. The lonliness is sharp and painful. I just want to meet for a glass of wine or go on bike ride with him (a fantasy) but will NOT contact him. We meet for counseling Thursday morning. This is so very hard. Thanks for listening.
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