I got laid off from work last week and I don't know what to do w/ myself. I already cleaned the floors, vacuumed and ran a few errands. I just can't stop thinking today. I've seen H for the past 3 days and it's gone well. He is still living w/ her until his place is ready and it kills me. He had surgery on his tooth today and had to be knocked out. He called his mom this morning and this afternoon but hasn't called me, however he knows that I talk to his mom several times a day and that she'll tell me he's ok. I think that's the reason why he even called her-I'm closer to his mom than he is. I'm sure "she's" hovering and watching his every move. He now hides the fact that we're trying to work things out from her cause he needs a place to stay (so I'm told). I don't know if he's sleeping or what he's doing. I'd hoped he'd be online but he's not. Sad but I'm looking forward to making dinner in about a half hour just to give me something to do. Then I think about 7pm I'm going to have a glass of wine (or two). Any suggestions on how to pass the time? It's still too cool to go for a walk, almost all of my friends work and honestly I hate housework-hard to get motivated. I started smoking again back in Feb when I found out about all this and now I smoke almost a pack a day sometimes. That's more than I ever smoked before.
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