Hello friends its been weeks sience I have been here! So much has happend my grandmother has past (she lived a long and good life 97 years) and the stbx lost his uncle 2 days later. Funny how he did not call me about grandma just told our daughter to give me a hug but when his side of the family dies I get a call. Maybe he is still closer to me than he wants to admit? My computer has been out of service and its been killing me not to be on this site. I really feel I am moving backwards for the hundreth time!!! My pre-trial was last week and because he was out of town nothing was accomplished. It is set back for 6 weeks. I have started the tears again this divorce is not what I want. I know it will eventually happen and he dont deserve me but it hurts like hell!!!!! I know you guys know my pain. I really try and count my blessings I really do. But today its poor me!!! I know I have to stop it. It dont help when he calls and says he will never be happy again and he hates his self for what he has done. Not sorry enough to undo the damage in my opion. I know people who go thru affairs and make it in the end. But I guess they really loved thier spouses and I dont need him if he dont love me right? Thanks for the vent!!!!!!!!!!!1
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