I was forced out of my house. My ex the supreme selfish abuser would not leave. He wants me there to abuse. I took my 3 kids and went to moms. For over 20 yrs its always about him but I never noticed. I was busy w/ being the everthing wife, the fixer, the doer, the worker. He would lay in bed and direct us all around from the 1st floor bedroom. Rather, he would scream at us. After the last abuse incident 3/28, after him taking meds, after confrontation, he still stood true to form and literaly destroyed my daughter of 18yrs old, b/c she did not get him a birthday card. It's been over a month since I filed for divorce. Heres an interesting kick. When my lawyer requested our marriage certif. The court house said they did not have one. That seems fitting. I am a humble christian. I dealt w/ his inperfections. Until they impacted our kids. I took our kids to my moms. And he is living in their confort zone, our house, I pay for, but he is mostly alone. Heres a bonus. Now I am the bad guy. Poor pityful ____. Probably cries and burdens the kids when they visit w/ his issues. I feel no pain for him. I am crushed that my 18 yr old, that I poured myself into over the years while he layed in bed. Prefers to stay w/ him. She says her room is there, and she is overwhelmed. She is just a child and I would never want her to know how devestated I feel, but my heart is broken. Abusers can be the most influential charmers. He has that gift. He still calls me several times a day on my cell. Trying to sound so sweet and complimenting me. My 13 yr old boys seem better w/ the peaceful change but I see they are crushed by what I have done. I explained why and pointed out how much better their dad treats them now.But he tries to outdo me w/ fake kindness. I am in therapy as well as my daughter. My sons go when I force them. My daily life is like a prison. Now I live w/ mom and need to take care of her issues as well. Please if anyone knows a good way to get thru this phase, tell me. I am new to this site.
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