For the past week i have been in hospital having treatment for an infection and because my pain control isn,t doing the job properly,my husband has been living with his whore for almost two week,s,last night i had a major problem with the pump i,m attached to [it had run out] so for almost 3hrs i had been literally begging them to hurry up and help me,[please read my journal i have cancer]each time the staff nurse told me we,re just drawing up the next syring and will re insert in a mo, well a mo turned out to be over 3hrs! and thankfully i had taken my own morphine in so i literally was crawling on my hands and knee,s,it got so bad i rang my sister who turned up at the hospital and demanded to know who was in charge, i was still on the floor when my sister barged in and boy did she give them and the nurses a mouthful! well by the time they went to put more morphine in i had pretty much had enough,sadly my son was very upset and he rang his dad,he also asked his dad not to go to the hospital with his whore,well obviously he decided to ignore or she pressured him,but he turned up and i was by this time was packing my bags,i,d told the staff nurse i was going and because i haden,t had my pain meds for a while and each time i had rung the buzzer i was fobbed off with the mortal word,s we,re just loading the syring! it took them almost five bloody hours to get the pain med,s in i was in agony,would you believe this man i thought i knew, turned and told me to stop being so melodramatic and do as your told! to cut this story short i discharged myself because i am totally exhausted and in alot of pain, i told him to get his and his whore,s arse out i do not want to see them again! my sister eveually brought me home and my mcmilian nurse has been in to arrange me to have reguler morphine dose,s until i am comfatable,i am very very hurt and angry that my so called husband would bring his whore to the hospital especally after our son had asked him not to,i just want him and her away from me! i am still going ahead with the divorce but why did he come to the hospital? he say,s he loves me but not in love with me,what the hell am i suppost say to that! i can,t understand why he send,s me phone messages as well as turning up at the hospital with his whore? why is he doing this? why? please i would value any advice right now cuz my heads all over the place,i do still love him but i will never have him back after he,s hurt me so much,if he think,s he can come back into my life,he,s very wrong! he also keep,s telling me he,s fed up with her! why tell me? i couldn,t give a toss about him or her but i will not be a mug i will never take him back ,i,d be very greatful right now off any advice please help me to sort out this mess in my head i don,t know why he keep,s turning up when i don,t ask him! shaz xxx
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