In continuing my thoughts from the last post, of does anyone feel the same..I think back to what a double standard our relationship was.. the truth is we were both heavy drinkers when we met and married, but after the birth our our first child I was given an ultimatem(sp).. that I could continue to drink.. and lose my family or get sober.. I chose sobriaty.. and remain so to this day.. infront of me he lead me to believe he did not drink.. but behind my back.. he just continued on.. and boy could he hide it.. or lie his way out of it.. dumbass me would believe him..in the final years of trying to save our marriage I agreed that I would have a drink now and then.. and started to follow him to the bars..i soon realized I was not going back to that... so I guess what he wanted was the little woman who would stay at home and tend the kids while he partied on....he wanted his single life and I wanted a family life...he had retired complained he was lonely...I worked, someone had to pay bills and keep insurance on us..and then came the affair...went on for months.. and still I forgave and thought we could move forward.. but no...there just was nothing left..i could not muster up any good feelings for this man..so we went on with seperate lives for 2-3 years..then I moved out...I'm not sure I really have a question.. but I am also sure I am not the only one who had to live by double standards...
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