Back N Forth Up N Down
I was with my husband for 21 yrs and we have recently separated its been 5 months now. He cheated for 2 yrs and I had NO idea..isn't that pretty common! I feel so stupid that I had NO idea. Anyway, I am STRUGGLING with putting the space between us and letting go. I have everything, the house, the two kids, the dog, etc. He packed his clothes and moved into a studio apt. He says he doesn't know what he wants. The "other woman" is somewhat still in the picture because she can't seem to leave him alone even tho he lied to her for 2 yrs. Her family will NOT except him & he knows it. He keeps going back n forth between her & I and I know I am the STUPID one who is allowing it. Its just my heart wants my family back SO bad it hurts! I have confronted the "other woman" and feel she is a BIGGER idiot than I am. I just want him to make a decision so we can all move on. I know I am supposed to kick his butt to the curb and tell him to figure it out but its easier said then done. I need the strength to put the space between us that is needed. People keep telling me if I do this he may finally see what a great thing he had w/ me & our kids but how long am I supposed to wait??? A part of me wants to move on & a BIG part of me is afraid. I have been w/ him since I was 16yrs old & he is all I know. Maybe thats the problem? I am STUCK and don't know what I am doing anymore! I am getting tired of the back n forth, up n down...when does it end and when is enough enough????
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