Just had to put this in writing. I hardly get out of my bed, I want to clean my house but all I can seem to do is look at it, that is as far as I get. I can't force myself to shower, my son came to visit today and I couldn't open the door becaused I was so ashamed that he would see me and the house in such a state. I have so many things I want to do with my life, at this point I would be happy if I could just shower and keep myself clean. I just want to be normal, I just want to not have to always feel ashamed. I am wasting what I have left of my life and can't seem to help myself, what a waste.
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