Am I crazy to hold on to hope of working things out? I have been separated for 1 1/2 months. He doesn't show any signs of caring about me! I am not sure, at this point, why I even want it to work, because he hasn't been kind to me for well over a year. Is it just the longing for when we were good and the security and the companionship? Is it that I am terrified to move on? How does one get beyond this stage and these overpowering thoughts? I bounce around my depression and strength from 1 second to the next somedays...most days...who am I kidding...all days. I can't stand it sometimes. I have had a rough week! I don't know why this week has been so difficult. Part of me thinks it has to do with joining this group and seeing reality, something I do not want to see, obviously! Why is this so hard on me and not on him? It just isn't fair!!!!!!
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