I have been looking a lot recently at how my internal structure gets plastered all over the outside. In therapy, my T has been challenging me to question what I am hearing other people say -oftentimes, it's coming back to me in the voices of different insiders. What did so-and-so actually say? What did I hear? Who's voice does that sound like? This kind of thing... it's helping me to identify when I am present and when I am not. When what I hear closely matches what was said, I know more of me is present. When I don't hear at all, I know I am dissociated.
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