Today was a bad day. Although I did work out and did a weigh in( lost 2.5lbs finally) I still feel like I am being defeated at every turn. I do my damdest to eat healthy but when the healthy stuff is not in the house I still have to eat. Lunch was crap. I hate that every time I eat something that I know I shouldnt ( even if its not really unhealthy) I feel guilty. I am tired of only havein the same 3 shirts that fit me and a couple pairs of shorts. I am tired of living in the same F*@$%!G sweatshirt for the last 3 months! I am tired of getting out of the shower and being disgusted at what I see in the mirror( i know TMI ) I know that it has taken me 23 years to get this way and it will take time to come off but I want to be the person that I know I am and not the person that I feel like stuck in a fat suit!
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