I personally consider it the sinful nature of the flesh or demonic temptation. However you look at it, I have always considered the mental aspect of losing weight as the hardest. I think it is probably about 80% mental and 20% physical. I don't know how many times in my past, after I had been on my program for a few weeks or even days, when I would start to hear a voice telling me that maybe I was supposed to be overweight. Maybe God wanted me that way. I would say things to myself like...Why not enjoy life because you have to die sometime? or...What makes me think that losing weight will prolong my life...? I could get hit with an asteriod tomorrow. The there was the twisted duel, conflicting feelings of losing weight in itself. It feels great to lose weight physically. You look thinner.....feel thinner....great right? Well you would think so....but then there it is. That uncomfortable exposed feeling. Maybe you feel like you are wasting away to nothing. Sometimes, for me anyway, it is almost UNCOMFORTABLE to lose weight. Oh yeah...here is another big attack. I look at pictures with my family and think to myself...am I going to be the same person to them? Here is one that has always been a big one for me. I am a little embarrassed to even admit this, but I have always had a fear that by losing the weight and becoming more physically appealing to women, am I increasing my chances of being put into situations where I could cheat on my wife. I have always had a problem with temptation, although I have never acted on it. I know...I have always thought this was a unique weird one, however I recently read a Christian book about weight loss and it seems that this could be a pretty common fear in men and in women. My bottom line is that I decided to take this one day at a time....with prayer...and so far it has been successful. I am also trying to deal differently with cravings. Instead of denying my food cravings and feeling resentful, I consider them like mental and physical military orders. When my cravings come...I have NO choice, but to incorporate them in my program. That is the key, though. The ability to incorporate them is left up to me. For example, I have been craving homemade steak soft tacos with sweet vidalia onion dressing and full of shredded sharp cheddar cheese. Guess what I am eating tonight. Exactly that. However, for lunch I only ate minimal calories so that I could incorporate it. I wanted to share some of this with the people on the board. Maybe you have had some of the same issues that I have had and think you may be weird or unique. I wanted to show that you are not. Weight loss is war and just like actual war you have to have a stronger strategy than the other side. The only difference is that this war is fought predominantly in the mind. If you share some of the same issues...I would be interested in knowning. If you want to share publicly that would be great...if not then feel free to email me. I have thought about starting a blog about this stuff. As I have said before, I certainly don't know everything about weight loss, however, what I do know is yours.....:-)
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