Bad, Bad eating day. I got up ready to hold it together today. It was over by 9 am. Weirdly, I am not feeling guilty. Very strange. I am looking for any explanation here, grasping at straws. I have never been a binge eater before. Emotional overeater, constant eater, social eater, but never this need to stuff myself to the point of pain. This is a new thing for me. And, maybe I'm in denial, but I don't feel like there is any emotional trigger. I just get this urge to keep eating and never stop. of course, once I get to the point of feeling ill, I wish I hadn't done it. Is there such a thing as a physical illness that would make me do this? Anyone know? Or am I really in serious emotional trauma, and I don't know it? I even had my depression meds adjusted earlier this week, thinking that might help. It didn't, obviously. I know I need to give it time to work and all, so maybe it will kick in. Any insight out there would be appreciated. I feel pretty darn clueless about why I'm doing this.
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