hallo everybody.
this is kind of off topic, but i need a little advice. till a few days ago i thought i had the job of my dreams. i was working in a stable, mostly with the 2 year old horses which are just being started to be ridden. i have loved horses all my life and been riding for a very long time. today was the first day that i actually had to get on some horses that have never been ridden before. they went completely nuts. i got bucked off about 5 times. one of them through me into the wall, and one of them even landed on me. i was scared to death. but it has always been my dream to start my own stable and train horses for other people. so i dont just want to give up. but i was really scared for the first time that i ever got on a horse today. i dont want to get killed. the other side to it is, that i am from germany and legally not allowed to work. the owner pays me under the table. so if i would quit, i dont think i would find another job and i need the money (i am also going to university). please let me know what you think. i really dont knwo what to do....