I don't think there's anything that I can say to really really help. But just know that you are not alone in your obsession. Consider this; I am travelling to Calgary on business at the end of the month and the only thing that I can think about is where I am going to eat and how much room service I can order. I go out every day at lunch for a walk, usually to the Eaton's Centre (downtown Toronto) and every store I pass by makes me more depresssed than the last. So then what happens? I eat - get depressed - eat more - further depressed and on and on it goes.

I'm at home now. Food food food. About to cook dinner for my son. I feel hungry but I can't be after all that I ate today. I have a glass of water here and am trying not to eat.

Trying to move forward, as well, this is tough, I am thinking about counseling.

This is difficult for you right now but don't give up hope that things will change.
Many people go through what you are experiencing right now.
Try to develop a very strong focus on something that is not related to your obsession. Your thoughts are tracking the same pathways and you need to make new pathways and take new actions. Good luck because this will not happen easily.

i am with you on that! have you ever had your thyrid checked?? if not, get it check and tell your doc to test your complete thyroid (tsh, t3,t4). That was my problem. i am still struggluing with my weight hang in here. big hug!!!

I am just calling back to see how things are going with you. Have you set little milestones in your direction of recovery? As I said, it is not easy and the big picture is too much to take in....so small achievable steps will assist. Hope is fundamental and change will happen if you make the right choices. Good luck.