Okay, here is the deal. i want to lose weight, but I eat way too much and as I am shoving that brownie down my throat after ordering a salad, knowing I'll feel disgusted after I eat this, I still eat it. Then I say, well I won't eat any dinner later, and of course I eat twice as much at dinner because all of a sudden I am starving. I don't understand why I can't just not eat crap? Why can't I not eat stuff that's going to make me feel bad? If I want to lose weight, wouldn't I not dare eat brownies or donuts or chicken nuggets? Wouldn't I wake up early and go running in the morning? I worked out maybe three days last week and I did it half-assed. I didn't exercise all weekend. I don't understand why I consistantly work against myself?? It's like I am my worst enemy!! Why do I do this to my self? If I am fat, why on earth would I eat donuts & junk? If I am fat, why would I make excuses NOT to work out? What the hell is wrong with me???
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