So, my mom and my wife had an intervention for me this past weekend...they took away my car keys so I couldnt leave. And, what they want me to do is stop going to the internet everytime I have a pain or find a blimish on my skin...yadda...yadda...yadda. My mom is like..I know how you feel...you dont drink..you dont smoke..you dont do drugs..and you have been healthy all your life...and you are wondering..why me..why did I get diabetes! Well, hell yeah, she is right. Every since I was diagnosed 2 months ago, I am constantly thinking about it...I self diagnose with the help of the internet everything from skin cancer to liver cancer...I have turned from a healthy person to a person that just wants to turn every little ache and pain..into a major illness of some sort. Is anyone else going thru this or have gone thru this? Is, this a natural response to diabetes, or am I just losing my mind? My wife said she can hardly take my negative attitude about dying young anymore...I dont want to lose my family over this...but I guess I am just scared. I am just wondering is this natural to be so scared about this? I am purposely not saying anything around my family about this anymore....but I still think about it most of the day. I am scared, confused and angry about it all. Just wondering if anyone else is going down this path?
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