I don't know if anyone else has ever felt this way but I need an outlet to voice these feelings and hope that there is someone out there who can give me something be hopeful about. I was diagnosed with diabetes when I was 9 and have struggled ever since with control. I've learned how to weigh, measure and count until numbers just make my head spin. I was also diagnosed with hypothyroidism at about the same time. I am 33 now. I am on a minimed insulin pump and things have gotten easier but not easy by far. My problem recently is that I have just gotten to the point where no matter what I do, there is no control. I check blood sugars and titrate insulin and log all that I eat and count carbs and do all that I am supposed to do but still end up with high blood sugar. I still keep track with carbs and take correction formulas but I am getting to the point where it's like, what's the use. Why bother going through all the trouble when the end result is always the same. No matter what I do, I cannot regain control. I feel like it is a waste of time and what little energy I have to go through all this.
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