i am going to be completely honest here. i fear that in a relationship i will become controlling over the man, as how else will i be able to trust him? my father was controlling, emotionally hurtful, neglectful and unavailable, manipulative...so i went out and had a crazy 4 yr relationship which was abusive, i took my anger out on him as i felt he deserved it...also he was a major manipulator, and was once physically abusive, and into weird sex senarios. it was awful and has really affected me, now even 4 yrs later. i want to be in a good relationship, and be able to trust, but how can i learn to do this? i feel sad as i go out with guys and dont continue to pursue it becuase of fear...but really all i want to do is to be able to feel good, worthy, happy and able to trust. i want to be able to let someone good in.
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