missed so much. seems like so many little things have passed me by that ill never know what i even missed. like ive built my house without ever knowing what a nail or hammer were. things are just falling apart now. i know i could try to fix them. that im young, i guess. theres still time. but every time i go to fix one thing, i realize that all the other walls are falling in on me. its not like i can just fix one at a time. the imperfections are what have got me here. theyre the only support there is. its just to much sometimes. ive missed out on so much, that i dont even feel like i can do what i need to do to fix my problems. its not as easy for me to just go out and make friends and meet people. so i stay inside, and let everything collapse on me.
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