i am tired of feeling bad when other people crap on me. you know i am not perfect. in fact i am far from it. i make mistake after mistake but i try to not hurt on purpose..first do no harm kinda thing. but it seems that people have no fucking problem hurting me..is this just my imagination? am i seeing things incorrectly? i try to make myself clear and concise, try to be a human with understanding and compassion and what happens, it get thrown back into my face..FUCK WHAT! i tell ya i hate being. i think i was dropped off onto the wrong sphere. i am not suppose to be here. i am still trying to figure out why anything in charge would allow something like me into the world of the living cuz obviously i am not wanted here. or maybe that is the point? the world needs absolute fucks to make others feel better about themselves or to feel useful. well you know, i dont like my role in this play they call life. time for the understudy cuz im giving my notice. i am on to greener pastures. fuck life and the horse it road in on.
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