My day goes a little something like this: I wake up annoyed that I woke up. My head is racing with thoughts of how worthless I am for not being able to lead a normal life. I watch TV and cry at anything on the screen. I cry from the frustration of not being able to communicate to others why I feel the way I feel. I don't even know why I feel the way I feel. I had a beautiful family (three georgeous children) I did everything in my power to hold on but the symptoms kept getting worse, it was harder to get out of bed, harder to disguise me emotions, harder to think, and basically function. I had a nervous breakdown after 8 years of spiraling out of control. I lost custody of my children and spiraled further and further into a deep depression. Its been two years and I am stuck an emotional disaster. What can I do?
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