I am not sure what to say. I feel really upset and worried about everything to be honest. I know I have not posted a lot but I am going to keep trying to vent and find support. I have been out of rehab for heroin for almost a month now. Since almost right when I got out, I have been seeing my boyfriend who still uses. I have not done it yet but I really want it. He doesn't do it around me but still. I have gone back to smoking again. I feel like my life has been torn up and I can't seem to put it back together. I hate how I feel and I hate that I will probably never see my boyfriend because he still uses even tho I love him. The stress is getting to me I think because the past couple weeks, I get sick randomly (vomiting). I thought maybe the flu but I think my nerves might be getting to me. I feel helpless and that I have nothing to keep me from doing more damage to myself. A huge part of me wants to just quit living.
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