Humm.. Don't know really where to start. I have been on this site for a little while and just havent posted much yet. Let's see, my depression seems to be getting worse these days. Night time is really bad for some reason. I try to distract myself a lot by watching tv, reading, cleaning, theres many ways that I try to distract myself, I just don't want to lay down to go to sleep. When I get into bed to go to sleep it's like everything starts in my head. I go over and over different things in my head. I think about my dad who passed away. I think about my son who is disabled. I think about money problems. I just think about so many things and always end up crying myself to sleep. I seem to be much more sensitive these days, the stupidist little things make me want to cry... I really need medication but I am still waiting for the health insurance to kick in.. untill then I am just trying to deal and it isnt working... Sorry for rambling on like this. I guess I just needed to vent a little..
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