I wish I had the guts to down all my pills. The only thing that stops me is the fact that if there's a hell I would definitely be going there if I did that. Otherwise I would. I'm so sick of feeling sick, of feeling like I want to die. I want it to go away and the only way I know how is to die. I can't take it anymore! I don't want any pity or anything, I just don't knwo how to express my feelings of not wanting to live anymore. I wish I could be happy, but I'm not. I try and try, but I just don't know how to acheive it.
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