I feel like I've been getting treatment for so long now, more than a yr, and i still am not feeling altogether better. I completely rely on meds and even with them i'm not feeling great...i started cutting...i don't think someone who was getting the correct treatment would start cutting...right?? It's 95 degrees out and i'm wearing long sleeves and no one is even asking why. I feel like my life is a failure, i will never get to live my dreams and every day is like prison for me. I love my kids but i feel sooo guilty cause i feel like they are holding me back sooo much. I kno i can't change the past but i don't know how to handle that and move on so that i can be happy even tho im not living the life that i think i would have loved...if that makes any sense. i just don't know what to do anymore
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