I have been suffering for over 4 months now, and I just want to know if this will ever go away. I take my medicine, I see my doctors, I exercise, but the depression is still here. I feel like it has taken every ounce of what I used to be and turned me into nothing- nothing but sadness. I feel so lonely. My family is right here in front of me- my 3 children and my husband, and I can not even feel them. I feel nothing. I have nothing to offer to anyone. I used to be full of laughter and joy, and now I am nothing. I have to act for everyone. I act for my children, for the neighbors, and i just wish I wasn't acting! I wish I could really feel and smile and laugh! I am so lonely. I can't even really remember how it felt to be happy. All I know is that my personality is gone, my happiness is gone, and I just want it back. I guess I just want to know that I am not alone in this very dark place that I am in.
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